Oblivion Grudge...

Inside my dark soul, I wanna free myself. I wanna cross the road, but the road wont allow me. Am not sinful enough. how can I be sinful if am in love with one god, "You"

I wanna dance barefeet till millions of dawn pass thru me and I find myself again.

I want this girl again, being wrapped in her own self passion, diffusing it to the world.

If I knew, just if I knew....... I wish I knew but am ignorant about life and yet still alive.

I wanna look at the mirror and recognize myself, I don't anymore.

If I scream those mountains over my chest!
Maybe then, I'll be ready to put down this load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember.

I can't reach you, I'm in the middle of the sea, cannot reach the shore

Demons, my own demons are locking me,

they do that sometimes,
they punish me

I wanna be holded,
till it crush my chest

I want compassion, I want to escape

cAn SoMEbody InsPire the HECK out of mE? (PS: Mature Content)

Digging a finger or two inside oneself for incentive..
Guiltless lustful actions known as Amour Adultaire..
Unecessary food filling a big hole in stomach..
Shaking infront of 9000 Watt speakers for a promised vibrate quack..
Quickies? they are only good for a momentum fantasy..
Foreplaying is becoming banal and no Eroticism enough for mental erection..

Neither prayers nor intense sex..

Cutting own flesh to taste running fresh blood..

But again......Nothing seems enough